…one day late (and “a dollar short”, no doubt).
But you know what? That’s what life is like when one has a chronic illness, so I’m just gonna have to get over my perfection-seeking self and be ok with that.
NaBloPoMo is National Blog Posting Month. 30 posts in 30 days. It’s a commitment. It’s scary. But I’ve been wanting to get back to blogging for quite a while and this is the perfect motivator.
…One day at a time…
I can’t believe my last post was in 2009. And I even find it a bit difficult to recognize myself in some of my way-back-when musings. Life is so different now.
After leaving NomDebPlume by the wayside, I began another blog where I wrote honestly and anonymously about how chronic illness changes things – for me, yes… but also for my whole family. And then, almost 4 years ago, I stopped writing altogether. I barely even write in my journal anymore (a compilation of the last 38 years of my life and, needless to say, a joy to read :-/ ).
Why? Because on the morning after Easter, 2012, my daughter was rushed to the hospital with what I would soon learn was called Severe Diabetic Ketoacidosis… which was especially weird because she had not been diabetic her whole 10 years of life. How does a child go from “healthy/not diabetic” to “keep asking her questions so she doesn’t fall asleep… we don’t want her to slip into a coma”.
Coma?? What the WHAT?!?
It was in those hospital moments, those ambulance moments, those watch-my-daughter-fly-to-a-better-hospital-in-a-helicopter moments, the watching her cry and being unable to soothe her – those moments – that MY chronic illness(es) suddenly melted into the background and I began my constant and laser focus on learning everything I could about Type 1 Diabetes and how to best care for my beloved child whose life had been turned upside down by its diagnoses. And I learned to step out – way out – of my comfort zone and actually give my daughter injections. (To know me is to know how very, VERY difficult this was for me to overcome.)
But Sunday will be 3 years and 7 months since that terrifying day, and things are less terrifying now. And I guess I’ve [finally] given myself permission to do something I have always loved – write. I can’t promise it won’t be without some accompanying guilt, but I think the accountability aspect of NaBloPoMo will help me get past that.
I hope :-)
Coincidentally, November is also National Diabetes Awareness Month. I shouldn’t have any trouble finding something to write about for the next 29 days.